Friday, August 26, 2005

I've thought through alot of things last night..
and i've come to realise that many things are not what i used to think it was..

I simply don't know why you've to lie to me.
1 yr?! I've been a fool for the longest time..
i hate people who lie to me, but yet you've chosen to lie to me for such a long time..

I cannot for the life of me believe what i heard ydae,
Tiong Baru.. 1 yr..
*haix*

But i guess it doesn't matter anymore ba..People do change and that change can be so drastic that you choose not to recognise them anymore.

The change in you is shocking to me.
Yes, it is..
But well, i didn't regret being in the relationship again. I've been truthful in the thing i want after so long of denial.. I'm proud of myself..

No doubt that being in love would mean that you have to face the pain of the break up, but i choose to believe and think that it's worth it..
God lives in my heart and in following my heart, nothing would go wrong..

-you're forgiven-

Dear heavenly father,
you slowly reveal to me that life is complicated..
But i'll face it without fear cuz i know you, the lord is near..
Father, let me survive thru this tough period of studying for the promos and managing my emotions well. I want to bring glory to you.
And i pray in the name of CJ, Amen.