Saturday, August 6, 2005

hey..So cool huishan has a blog! haha
must really thanks stef for helping me cuz
everyone knows i'm a computer idiot..Yupz
The holiday is here but still hav to do that written
report. PW is really bad. I hate it.

hmm..i wasn't feeling well today. was down with
this flu virus and after taking that pill,
i spent like the whole afternoon sleeping. So it explains
why i didn't go to watch fireworks with john they all
and go for the church bbq. I know i just missed that
bbq which i look forward to..Oh well, some things are really

unpredictable.

Yesterday, i was feeling quite empty thru that
long and quiet night. Was i missing you? i dunno..
i really dunno. I dun want to. But why is it that it is so hard to control?

Perhaps, I shld not love you..
Perhaps, I shld not care..
Perhaps, I'm not shld live my life wishing you were there..
Perhaps, I'm shld not wonder where you are or what you do..
Cuz you're not mine even if i want it to..

Haix..

I'm contented with life now but why is it
that i'm not as happy still? maybe is you that has
brightened up my life and now, the glow has dimmed.
Just need to have time to get use to it..
My thoughts just ran back to you..No! this shall not be
the way. I must learn to be independent
like how i used to be.

I must study harder. Promos is nearing and
I'm not gonna let my end-yr results be like the
mid-yr one..Hmm..really must get back the drive
for studying like how i studied for o'level.

HeY..i just remember tmr is sunday and Hurray, i'm
gonna go church. Being in god's kingdom is really a blessing.
I wanna sing praise to him and let his love be showered upon me
and let him fill my empty heart....


The stars are dimming..