Thursday, October 27, 2005

haix.. dunno why i left school earlier than what i'm suppose to.
Things aren't going well and i really have no mood for anything and everything. i'm sick of pw. having 2 op consecutively in a week is bad..

hmm..My tutorials are left undone. Lectures are meant for day-dreaming.
Everything is in its topsy-turvey state. I kept asking myself what is the worse senario that can ever happen but..i've found no answer to my own question. *sigh*

Last night, i couldn't get to sleep for long hours. i stared at my hp, hoping to see the time passes more quickly. Many thoughts went through my mind. i recalled everything that had happened for the past months...and i just realise that in a short 1 year time, so much had happened..so much that i've seen, know and experienced..

Still could remember that i was so excited to go to Mjc on the 1st day of school. Perhaps, things are new and fresh and the happiness of a get together with my friends led me to look forward to school. Now, haha..the thought of going to school without knowing what will happen the next day just make me so reluctant to do so. Guess the 1st 3 months in this year was the most happening and happiest days i've experienced..

Then, it came to the posting of school and the separation with my real close friends out there..
Initially, i really hated Tjc to the core. now that i've slowly accepted it and feel for it, things had to happen this way..

After that came the broken relationship that left me in a helpless state. i did badly for my mid-year, hoping to go full gear to prepare for promos but still, in the end, my promos was another failure.. i just couldn't accept the things that had happened to me..Why?! Why am i the one?!

i want so much to start all over again. Fresh and new for J2 life.

i pray.. i hope...& i wait..

praying for protection over me..
hoping for promotion to come..
waiting for good news to be known...