it was the 1st time i felt how great it is, to be truely appreciated as a teacher. The many little gifts i've received from parents and students put a smile to my face. it is not the cost of it but the thoughts that truely count. i finally understand the meaning to this. =)

But somehow, i feel i'm not really responsible to my students. When i'm tired, i can decide to cancel the tuition. When i just don't feel like going, i gave excuses. Is that how i reciprocate their gratitude to me? Well, i hate myself from doing all this but i'm not lying. I'm really dead beat.



Ever since 'dudley' came and i had to teach him, my weekdays all gone. He is not totally the cause of it though.. i had many students and i should have better planning on the route.



Giving tuition drains the brain. i never believe this when my mum told me, but having gone through it myself, i think i know. I further tire myself by travelling back to practice yoga after my evening tuition because i don't think i want to let Tiffany, Catherine, Henry, Jeslin, Serene and Christina's effort go to waste. they tried hard to get a pass for me so i could go back even though i was no longer working. And i should put it to better use.



But i'm tired. i'm really tired.

I cannot practice yoga, practice piano and earn money all at the same time.
But i need to..
Yoga gives me peace and an undescribable sense of little satisfaction.
Practicing piano? It is my duty, the only way my dream could be fulfilled.
Earning through tuition? it gives me the allowance i need.

Truely speaking, i didn't know that money could be such a necessity until i start working.


i don't how to mange my life better. =(

sometimes, or rather many a time, i wish i could have a confidante...


i'm tired. good night world..


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E V E R Y B E A T O F M Y H E A R T


So here we stand
Anchored in hope
Letting the rain wash away every fear
Stars in the sky
Twinkle and shine
I pray they won't disappear

'Cause I don't know where your journey goes
or how long it will take to unfold
But as long as we keep this moment shining in the dark
I will be watching over every beat of your heart

I wish that time
Could be replayed
I'd keep you here with me everyday
They say that love is letting go
I hope that you find your way
'cause I don't know
where your journey goes
or how long it will take to unfold
But as long as we keep this moment shining in the dark
I know you're watching over every beat of my heart...





missing you from afar.. in silence..