yann ling did tell me this:

Everyone starts out on a mission or task with enthusiasm and faith...
but the tricky part is how to keep the faith strong enough through the difficult times.

So..
1. don't just have faith in yourself, but have very strong belief in that faith.

2. the moment you take on a task make sure it is something you want to see to the end. whether you succeed or not doesn't matter it is what lessons you learnt out of it, and how much better and stronger you've grown through the experience that counts.


those words rang in my head when i stumbled upon johnson's blog after so long. Now then i did see it. He sent his best wishes for my A'lvl. He named me as one of those juniors that he was close to, and he also said that he look forward to seeing us in Uni when he enters in 2008. That will be like next year.But sadly, he won't see me. i cannot make it to local uni.

i tried to hold back that self-reproach or what not whenever this sensitive issue was mentioned. But the tears never fail to choke in my throat as it welled up in my eyes. sorry johnson, i didn't dare to break this news to you when you showed your concern about my results. But i believe you would have heard from diya or even holly. Haven't you?