As we walk down the air-conditioned passage way towards the ferry, it was already the evening time. Outside, the sun was beginning to set. The BMT camp lay bathed in a rose-gold light in which every leaf edge seemed sharper, every green distinct. Sunlight sparkled on the blue water by the changi's shore and as all the parents and visitors made their way back to their home, the enlistees were left there, in tekong to receive the trainings that all s'porean man would have to go through. Seeing each of them wave goodbyes to their close ones, i think i see their vulnerable, uncertain and the when-can-i go-home look. maybe not all. but i see that in my elder bro.

Well, i don't know..

If my son were to be enlisted, i think i won't bear to see him go. Not as in what i always tease my friends as mummy's boy that sort of son i'll have, but it's just that when my friends tell me they are nervous and part of them being fearful of what is ahead, that sort of fear, till today, i realise it is reasonable and unavoidable.

Tekong looks nice. Good springy bed, many full length mirror around, good food, many friends and all. In fact, it looks like a sentosa actually. But i think these guys are really very ke lian and need lots of encouragements at times. Their rigourous trainings start without fail at 5.30am each day and my my.. my heart goes out to them. Yet ironically, i think Ns is a must for all guys. It moulds them from a boy to a man who could bear through hardships. If only i could see my bf through his ns days. that would be nice, isn't it? When they are in camouflage uniform, and standing so confidently. they can be chrismatic. *grin*

i went to tekong not to guy watch and comment so much on them, but just that the trip there today makes me feel quite a bit. I used to say i feel used when BMT friends msg me just because they want to find someone or anyone to confide in. However, on weekends, they just can ignore me. The same cycle repeats every week. But i think now, even though they are using me as a source to vent their anger or whatever sort, it's alright. i will reply. i want to share bits of my joy from my life to the cold palace in tekong. Just allowing them to force a grin, i guess that's all sufficient..



And to my bro, take good care and fret not. Always wishing the best for you. Not said and not shown through little actions. But that's exactly what i want for you. Ns makes a guy appreciate his family, his surroundings and even little things like food and water better. Hence, may today be the start of the journey, of you becoming a more sensible, more responsible and a true guy we call Man. Soon.