the many many days of fun made me not want to go back to reality. to the life i once belong to.

i had a nice christmas this year. not the fabulous kind of christmas with loads of gifts like how a child would wants it, but to me, the presents does not take the center stage. It is the accompany that matters, isn't it. Simple bliss is all i need. And this year, i've got it again. I shared my available time on Christmas eve equally to all who are important to me and although i was dead beat, i think the sleep lost is worth it.

But then again, knowing so many people are booking into camps again tomorrow, the thought is thick and heavy as granite that makes me feel so down right now. sigh..

i cannot wait for the 3 weeks of confinement to be over. I'm not the one being confined and i know i'll be fine after tomorrow but why am i feeling so down right now?




=( i don't want. i just don't want it.. i feel so strongly now. Ahhh!!
the incapability of having a grasp of situation..