my heart feels like screaming..
i feel so weak now..

dear god,
give me strength and a very powerful mind to keep believing that i will be alright soon. Let me know i'm never alone. let me learn more about the imperfection of man and the perfection of you. i know u gave us feelings so that we can experience joys and sorrows. Sorrows take time to get over and it also gives us new perspective in life. but dear father, the pain i feel is much more than i can cope right now. i thought i would be fine before i got that message. but apparently as it came and more were to come tonight, it tears down my strong upfront and i can no longer pretend to be strong behind closed doors of my comfort zone: my room, anymore.

Why me?

i really feel like pouring my heart out and perhaps let me lose the feeling of how to love again. like how i used to feel. alone yet not weak..

anticipation brings disappointment. what position am i to want more? everything has cleared up. no more. no more..



dear god, won't you just provide me your eveready Big Daddy Hug right now?
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