2 more days to my Exam.

I need to buck up and utilise my time to the fullest. Yesterday was just another day lost. I was feeling sick and I had no voice when i woke up. My throat and head hurts badly. Having no mood for anything, I played piano for the longest time ever. The whole afternoon was spent doing that. it's like 6hrs of practising. Unbelievable. But finally, i've got my last chopin piece brushed up and finally, i managed to convince my teacher to let me enrol for the ABRSM music exam. She didn't want me to take the Sept sitting so yeah, i'm going to go for the next year March exam. And i'll make sure i pass it so that my study plan overseas would not get affected.

Music has become my shelter of refuge when i couldn't study, when I've got no peace in me..

i kept asking myself was it that i've been sleeping for too long and is everything just a dream? Those days.. where we could cook up silly jokes, share our problems and be there for one another has become a burst bubble? If it is a dream, why is it so real?
And if those days were real, what is this that i'm facing right now? Isn't this real as well?

I can't go through any more days of this.. I don't want anymore games. No more grey areas. I don't like this weakness that I'm feeling; I used to be able to fight it.


If the past is a lie, a dream, then let me forget about it completely.
---Those days in vivid---

Now, I just want you as a friend.

I'll move on!! I need and must do well for my studies and music. After all, i think at our age, we are too immature to be talking about love. Everyone is my friend. Soon after my exam, i have many many meet-ups with my beloved friends. The first on this week list would be with my qing ai de Sandra, xue fang and dap. Then hopefully can supper on sunday with holly, stef, diya, johnson, luther and denzil the driver. I've missed these group of people lots. Ever since A'lvl ended, we kind of lose contact. But i'm gonna be back. I'm not a castorian but Alhena and castor should befriend after so long, isn't it. ha. I'll look forward to the weekends. For now, i shall go back to my Calculus. I'll do well for my exam. I will try hard. So Mum, have that little trust in me.



Hanging on time to reveal..