Last night, my mum happened to see me alight from Clement's car and she did came into my room after that and have a long chat with me. It was a long conversation and i only went to bed at 2am. She started off by asking me how's my revision and that if i really want to go aussie to study, i have to work really hard on not only my studies but also on how to learn to be more independent. haha. mothers are clever creatures. cos Finally, she managed to link back to her main concern which was to ask who that guy on the car was.

She said that at my age, the problem of relationship can be very real and she wants me to learn to be rational and not go by how the heart feels cos being twirled into the mist of this can either make u feel very bless or it can tear a person apart and she'll never want me to feel hurt nor screw up my studies as a result of this.

Well, I don't know if she thinking abit too far but she goes on to say about marriage. Hmm.. planning ahead is always good but is the next relationship really going to be the final one that can lead me to marriage? If so, i think i know the seriousness.

But nevertheless, i can feel my mum's concern. While saying all these, her eyes filled with the tender love a mother has for a child. The overflowing care could not be ignored and it made me felt like drowning in guilt cos i know i hadn't showed her that i'm independent enough to handle all these even without her saying. She has enlightened me even more now and i'll learn as time goes..

I knew i'm different from others cos of my family background. I've got a fou tang and my parents are vegetarians, not those that goes vegetarian one month once but yes, they are the everyday kind. and by right all of us should. And if i really am, how many can really accept that?


As i concede..