Lately, my insomia has returned..

i can only fall asleep at around 3 to 4am and at 5plus, i would be awake. I need to get this cured.

I need the energy to study harder.But why am i not?
So much online lectures to cover and i'm still struggling to complete my tutorials. Plus sleeping late makes me hungry.

My house seems to be food rationing. No food at home :(

I need healthy food. I haven't had proper 3 meals a day for at least the past few days. not even 2 meals? i kept drinking milk, milo and 'rojak' soup. Self invented soup cos it's real easy. Just go find anything in your fridge and throw them into boiling water. That's it. Drink and drink and i'm sure will be full after that.

Who would kindly cook for me while i finish all my homework?
Who who who?

Mum is busy. Bro's cooking is HIS receipe= no trying.

So much complains about undone workloads but yesterday i still decided to go chinatown with my mum, sis and bro. My sister got herself a dress and for me, i got many many things.

I paid for a whole new colour set of cosmetics though is my mum who wants it. Then, i've got my belts, hair accessories and a pair of pumps. Yeah i know i already had plenty of pumps but i'll never grow sick of buying more cos, aren't they a necessity? Or am i finding excuses to buy things i love again. haha. In any ways, i know i'm going to be broke soon. Or am i already broke. i cancel tuitions after tuitions and i shop like i'm loaded. haha. Cny is the culprit!!

Oh yes, and i still couldn't find my ideal top. I know what kind i want. it's inside my pea brain but i just cannot describe to the shop aunty what i want when they ask me. You know, it's like.. hm. simple blouse.

But the good news is that i've found my ideal purple satin dress. Not sure if i should buy it cos i don't know if i'll have alot of occasions to wear that and it's not cheap either. It's 50 bucks for a simple dress. Well, i just like simple things. my principle of less is more, is in me. =)

And well.. once again, some things, some thoughts are lingering in me. Yes, i know i've said this time i've really gotten my priorities right. But i don't know why these thoughts came.

i will definitely still hold close to my priorities. my A'lvl nightmare always live in me.

but sigh.

can someone tell me why is it that

在面对自己的情感，我们就变得很不勇敢呢？