My greatest fear is the fear of uncertainies.

And i face it again =(

All the lectures i have for this anatomy module is linked to the perth web and ALL my lectures are via the web. I only have tutorials and practical session here. It's not that i'm against online lectures or something, but i feel so uninteractive when all i could do is hear the lecturer and the see the slides. It's like they are saying "this cell...blah blah" but i cannot see which cell exactly are they pointing to and everything has to be up to me to imagine. Ok, i know i have bio background and the lecturers there are no doubt so much better. But nevertheless, i still feel so insecure and i've got this strong feeling that i'll flung this module. Which i don't want!!

i'm always behind schedule and my tutorials, sigh.

i need to do something about it. But then, this part of me keep asking myself why am i putting so much effort into this uncertain path of mine. how will this degree keep me? What do i want to do in future? i was once so inspired by Miss Tiew and wants to be a bio teacher. Now, so where has this inspiration gone to? Do i have a flare for bio? If i don't, why do i love bio so much and why am i majoring in biomedical science?

Sigh.. Who has the answer for me.

My current class is much smaller in terms of the number of people. But everyone is so stranger to me, except that few. i keep having the thought of wanting to skip tutorials since i could get everything online. i know it's wrong but well. i don't know.


I'm so lost now..