Very quickly, 3 days of cny is already over.

After cny came, i didn't understand why in the 1st place should i look forward to it. Since, once again, everything is almost the same except for this year, the longer holidays allow more meet-ups with friends and thats all.

From the 2nd day of cny onwards, my day was activities packed. And for ydae, i enjoyed myself the most. i met young master and my queen at Nat's birthday party and with so many little children at the party, the laughter and fun took my fatigue temporary away. But then, yesterday i was really tired. so, i fell asleep in the movie theatre after that. i really don't know what the movie was showing, cos i fell asleep throughout the show. hahahaa.

I still went to meet yt and sf's group after that. The group was big, made up mainly of their cell's people and some of their army's friend. I should feel odd being there but as a super sociable creature, i blended well with them. =) However, the big group wasn't really close. It was made up of many small groups. Somehow, it made me miss the past woc group of people. The time when we sat at mac outside the shaw house and assign our post, the time when we chill together at ecp during christmas eve, the time when we went to taka together and had lots of choc stuff. Everything WAS the past. Past tense.

Perhaps, it is difficult to make all good things last forever. Perhaps, the good friends i have now would one day wear out too.

And with that, it just reminded me of the conversation i had with my 表姐 on friday.

She just got married a couple of months ago and she said that marriage is somewhat different from dating. There is alot of compromising, alot of committment and trust. she told me how different i was from the others because of our common family background. And after hearing, i told her i knew and again, i sighed. My cousins are starting to bring back their partners to be involved in family activities, esp during this cny. And my aunty who dotes on me start to ask me when is it my turn. She reminded me i'm already 20 this year. But i didn't really reply her seriously. i smiled and told her soon. maybe tomorrow i'll be getting engaged and the very next day i'll be married and the very next day, i'll have a child. Then i ask her if i fit into her marriage roster of 3 in a year and will she be ready give out her red packet. She replied me and said that i better hurry or i'll expire soon.

ok, i know i'm crappy and so is my aunt. haha. That's why we're a family! =]


But i feel a companion is a lifetime thing. i shouldn't anyhow love anymore. A lasting relationship which leads to marriage isn't about just the 2 of us..