I almost couldn't wake up on time to teach today.
The group of us went to Liquid kitchen to drink and chill till 1am after school ended and then headed for pratas.i went home already, but in the end jake still came and picked me up. It was already very late at night when i reached home and surprisingly at 4am, there were actually this old man searching through the pile of junks by the trash bin. Ragged and ungroomed, he made feel real scared while waiting for the lift to come. If he rushed into the lift with me, i'll probably be so frightened to even run out and up the stairs. Furthermore, i don't think i'm 100 percent sober. I lost several rounds of games and because the forfeit was to drink, i ended up drinking alot even though Jake helped me with many cups already.

And i believe that mixing alcohol really make one more easily drunk after yesterday night. Thankfully, in half sober situation, i didn't have to cab home, else i won't be able to direct the driver, much less to protest if the driver decides to drop me off at some deserted areas.
So, the moral of the story is to learn to hold your liquor well. Which means i need more practice in that area and it also mean i must drink more? No, i won't. cos the morning hangover feeling is really bad. Will drink no more from now on.

Yesterday i was somehow angry. Angry that my effort of being nice to a friend turn out to be a wrong thing. Why do people always think that you can only be nice to others if only you treat the other party as someone more than a friend? I mean, that's so illogical in my point of view. Platonic friendship still can exist between a guy and a girl and i root firmly in that point of mine. When shaun is sick and he calls me to tell me, i would call him the next day to check his recovery. When zhide is sick, i attempted skype call but though i am such technology dinosaur, i failed. But the point is, i still would care. And the example list goes on.
I mean to my girl friends, when i show concern, there isn't a problem but well, to guys it seems there is problem. Think it is because guys are creatures from different planet compared to women. They have goon goon head, but women don't. They are mean and insensitive unlike women. They can fake ignorant to obvious things for god knows how long, but women cannot. All in all, i think they are horrible. Pardon me for generalising. But was seriously pissed yesterday. That person doesn't even know i'm angry lah. Still say i childish. But so what if i am? that is because i'm young what! so i can be childish! GRR!

But yeah, everyone who knows me, also knows that i cannot be angry with another for more than a few hours or even minutes. Yes, i can be sad for quite a long time but when it comes to anger, it don't last.
i don't know about how long jealousy can last in me.
And ironic to what said earlier, that i was incensed yesterday, i still went to buy Cal-Mag supplement for that person who made me angry today. it must be the alcohol in me that hasn't been sent to the liver for detoxification that makes me do all this. So, i'm not such a nice friend afterall. I will be very angry if anyone makes me angry ok!!







and dear father,
let me have a big heart to have magnanimous love in me even though the circumstances don't always fair the way i want it to. Let me rest in the knowledge that you the god has sovereign over our life situation and everything happens for a reason. Let me remove all the unpleasant feelings in me and replace it with the wonderful love of yours. thank you father, for doting on me and has given me nothing but the best. Thank you.