i want so much to be free from all these craps.

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when i compare some things unknowingly, i realised what's the best. And somehow, i wasn't aware till now. And even being aware of it now, i also know that one has to be realistic. so it boils down to the question of realisim vs idealism again.



coeval of differences is not possible. at least for me.


---continued--- 9.40pm

Last Saturday i was at the same place studying and doing the exact things i'm doing right now.
And it made me miss last saturday very much..

i shoud be out with my BFFs tonight and if i were there, it would be full attendence. But i decide to give it a miss. Just like how i decide to give the meet-up with sherman to sit the sg flyer a miss. And the movie tonight with him a miss too. Should yesterday not be because i Believe i could do what i wanted, i wouldn't be out at all.

And now,
i just want to do what i deem should be.
i feel disstressed.
Do wish to be temporary autistic.
alone yet given the thinking space.
Dear god, won't you just remove all these wrong things in my life now?
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i've become the not-so-happy-me once again.
but thankfully, i could be at where i were last week, and have the accompany that i feel comfortable with. That's when i could be myself.




i love the familiarity.
green tea is my antidote now.