Noting many changes in people these few days make me feel truely disappointed.
nothing is forever. I kept reminding myself.

i'll go back to the days where it's just my studies, my yoga, my piano and my tuitions. JUST these will do. i recall last year, i used to not be able to join my friends in meet-ups because i've got work. But now that i could plan my own time better, everyone moves on to different phase of their life and probably friends aren't so important anymore. Sadly but truely, i've come to accept the cold hard fact that friendship is short-lived. So i've been asking many of my friend these few days- 'how long can our friendship last?'
Though i do get those standard answer like it would last forever and ever, but honestly speaking how true would that be? These are just a pack of lies that are pleasant to the ears of others.

People changes.. nothing is forever.

Realising that, i find it quite meaningless to actually cancel my tuitions for meet-ups anymore. I shall not do such things ever again. I should place priorities in the right areas.

One of them is my studies.
Having spent much time revising for the first 2 tests which cover chapt 1-5, i neglected the need to actually clear my doubts from chapt 6 onwards. Hence, it became a snowball effect and now, i'm really confused when i read my notes and revise for my monday test which is chapt 6-11. Doing the mock test questions are really disheartening. I'm spending so much time on my tutorials and my online testsssss which are due this coming fri have yet been done. There is so many assess questions in each chapt and just by thinking about it, i feel suffocated. But because i've chosen to major in this subject, i'll still fight on. Against all odds.

However, right now i want to vent it out by typing cos my brain seems to be exploding.

Crescendo of workload is making me talk less chirpily and is also making me easily pissed. I need an antidote and right now, sleep is the one. would want to talk confide less in people about my worries and all cos i realised no one can share my burden or even lend a TRUE listening ear.

The way people change and how quickly they forsake each other made me just want to depend very much on my dear heavenly father. The one what would NEVER forsake.





when our hearts hurt because of loss, we can find hope in our Lord, who never changes.
In every change He faithful will remain.

dear lord,
i want a cuddle right now =((