The weekend was love. Especially my sat. =))
i finally was able to watch The incredible Hulk. Very nice!!
=)) Waited till the 12midnight show then we got the tickets. So, all should watch.
It's really a nice movie!

Sun was nice too. I went church and it was my first time after like a month, that i really was trying to memo the verses in chinese together with my cell. It was out of true wants this time that i actually did it. Not trying to do it because the whole cell was doing so. And during the service, yujie suddenly approached me and sat beside me. I was thankful, for she shared with me one of the spiritual gifts that i've always wanted. She told me how her gift of speaking in tongues came about and someday, i do hope and pray i'll be granted with this precious gift too.
My cell surprisingly knew my birthday was coming and they got me a cake and a card. Very sweet of them. I really like the card. It's a card filled with loads of blessings. It's really a better gift compared to any other costly things. If only all my friends could write me a card during my birthday, how nice would that be. And talking about cards, i've received my air-flown blessings-filled card from uk. Thanks zhide! I smiled big when i received it. =))






To that someone:
i finally knew you. i was indeed disappointed to know my genuine care for you as a friend was known to be 'toying with one's feeling. So much for wanting to salvage the friendship on my side. And everything feels like a joke. i'm the joke for this entire thing. Whatever k. you shall do what you deem right. Our paths shall not cross.

And pls, what you've said doesn't make me feel lost, confused nor upset. It just made me be more certain that guys so called love is really so liable to change, esp you. Guys are visual creatures. Guys don't deserve to be loved WHOLEHEARTEDLY. They are meant to be flings. Loving is just a lie for guys to date, for guys to get intimate with a girl. But intimacy without commitment is defrauding. Initmacy without friendship is superficial. A r/s based on physical attraction and romantic feelings will last only as long as the feelings last.

Someone like you who is fueled by impatience will only cause hurt to yourself. i'm saying all these not because i want you to continue liking me. your love is too big a word for me to feel worthy. i'm NOT having phobia cos of my past, so stop saying i have. I just have so much trust that god has a perfect plan for my life. He has his perfect timing in all things and that includes my love live. He gives me the freedom as a single now, to explore, to study and to widen my social circle. no other time in my life will offer these chances.