striking a balance is not easy. i'm losing my cool. i lost control with what i'm undertaking. i'm stress with studying, with everything. And what pisses me is that you- wayne just cant stop asking me to talk to you just so i would feel better.

But he doesn't understand this: I don't want to speak. I just want to be alone. Alone to think through my own things and settle it. But i'm still sorry for what i said earlier.

And bcos huishan wouldn't and couldn't show out how she feels, she blogs, hoping it does relieve a little when this wave of helplessness hit.

she wants to blog but she doesn't know what else to type other than the word: Sigh.

A sigh express the unspeakable; an emotion so deep that it amounts only to a sigh.

where have my smiles gone?
i often ask others to smile cos i see the importance to it. But right now, my storage of smileys are gone.
where have my smiles gone?