monetary matter

i need more money..


when god forecloesed on Eden, he condemned Adam and Eve to go to work. Work has never recovered from that humiliation. From the beginning, the Lord's word said that work was something bad: a punishment, the great stone of mortality and toil laid upon human sprit that might otherwise soar in the infinite, weightless playfulness of grace.

Most work in the life of the world has been hard, but since it was grindingly inevitable, it hardly seemed worth complaining about very much. Work was simply the business of life, as matter-of-fact. To work for mere survival sounds desperate but i guess that's the motive for all to actually work now.

But i work. i'm still broke. So broke right now that i realised i didnt have much left for the month. And from next week onwards, tuition will stop for most, since exam period is over. And that also means i'll be more broke :(((

i need to manage my money better. I think i should stop going out. In that case, i spend lesser. Yes. that shall be it. Eat less & go out less = spending less. that's the equation. So people, i shall mia for awhile. be autistic just so money can be saved.



GRR. i'm broke. i'm broke. i'm broke!! :(((
Albeit the sheer necessity to work in order to sustain life, i just question this: isn't there some inherent worth in work? i'm just 20. why is monetary matter MY matter?! :((

Conclusion: i don't want to wk!!