Spiralling out of control

Spiralling out of control

Nobody's bulletproof-- even with a vest strapped on.
Nobody's life is full of goodness even he/she wants badly so.

it's going to be a wordy post cos i only feel like blogging when i'm having extreme feelings, be it very happy or very upset. yeah. so determine which is it from the below wordsssss.

When everyone is in the festive spirit and holiday mood, my test is around the corner and i know i must study real hard this time to score well. My memory is failing and all the upcoming mod needs me to really have super memory. ok, probably not super memory but just a normal memory of one; one that is lacking in me. i did real badly for my biochem mod and i almost didn't make it. it's scary cos i could really remember how that feeling would haunt you when you study for the subsequent tests or exam. It's like you have a voice within you that says: Ah, study also can't do well. give up, give up!! Go sleep la, tomorrow then study. And yes, i'm very scared of the return of that so-familiar voice.

i wouldn't want to fail at this point of time when i've just stood up from my fall :((

i must study! study study study! TOMORROW i promise.

End of test is coming-- 6 dec!
End of lab report is nearing too-- 17 dec!
Then..
i can enjoy my white christmas cum holiday abroad-- 20-29dec! (with my lec notes brought along! boo!!)

byebye :((