resolution will come?

resolution will come?
am so scared yesterday and wanting badly to get things resolve. thinking doesn't help. it just makes my heart hurts more. woke my sis up to talk to her but seeing her tired look and knowing she has to wake up at 6am the next day, i decide to convince myself to sleep.

however hard i tried, the vision of the celling doesn't soften and send me to dreamland.
Fear, why is it gripping me so tightly, suffocating my every breath?
could it be that i hit the bed too hard till the tears roll down?