To wean from the usual rich fantasy and wants. cos... THAT'S LIFE?


What's life? i always question.

sadly but as we grow older i came to realise that kinship has a magical binding that no matter where you are, your care for another family mbr of yours wounldn't lessen in any way. And i say that cos my elder bro is going to Brunei for his army contact for i think minimum 6 months or more. Though i seldom talk to him, but somehow knowing that he's leaving, kind of not used to that idea and just wished the r/s between us could be closer, just like how jianliang dear is so nice and sweet to his sister, sometimes, i really am envious of that bond that has been forged and so, i wished it was the same for me, and that, could probably be something we could reminise on when he's alone abroad. well, he still has to leave his comfort zone to see the world and probably be moulded to someone better. So we could just end this by saying, well, that's life.

Then recently, several things happen and anyone would apt on thinking about the former qns i asked earlier.

1. everyone would probably know i've started teaching Vania piano since a a couple of months ago. And as she progressed, she started learning to play with both hands. It's really not easy for new starters but if you have the love and passion, you'll brave the odds and go ahead to practice no matter how hard it is. But she told me something on thurs that sets me pondering why even did she even started learning music. Is it meizhen jie who wants her to? Or is it she wants it herself. How could a kid be all so tired that she repeatedly tells me she dozed off while practicing the piano and then when she washed up to do her Kumon prac paper, she dozed off the 2nd time. i brought up the concern to meizhen jie and there she goes saying "i know she's tired but haha, that's life."

2. Sharleen, my classmate who is much older then anyone of us is pursuing her degree with me and though she is already hitting her thirties soon, both me and peiyin finds that she is quite gifted in managing her full time work and studies at the same time. However, i guess life is getting tougher and it can never be easy convincing yourself the tough days are going to be over if you're the victim is this whole rat race cycle. She wanted to give up her studies now and she did say "the reason why i started no longer is impt." well that sentence occupied me for half that day and makes me qns everything i've had right not. is it what i actually want?

3. i went to visit my nanny in lavender and bought her some groceries for her sunday cos' her grandchildrens are coming to visit her every sunday. And she casually told me how bad her hubby in his nearing age 90 has become. He suffers from dementia and now he really behaves more like a kid. She said there's a likelihood that he might be sent to the old folks' home if he continue behaving this way and tho she blatantly claimed that there isn't love between them (last time is was matchmaking and need to marry off to avoid being send to being a prositute during the jap occupation days), but i think she still can't bear to. Partly her very own house wld then be sold and she has to stay with either of her sons. Sons. how dependable can they be. Their wives is the major obstacles. And as much as i want to help her in terms of her monetary prob but how do i? i don't earn enough myself and i ain't her kids. How can i ask her to stay with me.
So then again. Is that what we call life?



why is everyone struggling with what we call life?

PS: weishan, you make me so happy on thurs again when i met you. you're a friend so true, so worthwhile, so loving, so everlasting i wld want it to be..