dream may be just a dream

i truely yearn to be able to study abroad when i embarked on my current path degree studying. I needed the experience abroad tho it comes with the price to pay like the big sum of money that would be invested into all these youth-like-unrealistic-unredundant experience to some may think. However, when i hear or see or realise many of my friends are going over, that stirred quite abit of disappointment in me as i knew such chance would not come again when things become less simple and when life is covered with worries and stresses about jobs, money and children in your life later. Guess if you don't do it now, you'll never have the chance to revisit those youthful days again. That's the same old path everyone or most of them undertake in SG. things are so standard.

Mum says that safety abroad is a big point to consider but nevertheless, i find that sg isn't truely many times better as the number of crazy-brain-ded people are on the rise as well anyway. if sg is so safe, i guess the number of attempt pervertic guys that tried to molest/stalk me since young would have been down to the the number zero. nothing could make me forget every single traumatic experience so, afterall safety isn't about where you are. it's about luck and how brave you can make yourself to be in that situation.

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i just want a time abroad not as a tourist, experiencing the freedom when my parents are still 'young', with my partner and have the peace, joy and abundance love with a simple mind and eventually when i return to have the routine life in sg, i could rmb and be nostalgic about the days which brought me thus far.